My name is Zed. You don't need anything else.
Everything on here is a lie.
Thank you for reading.
Friday 27 June 2008
The key
OK, so it turns out that apparently I had given Jen a key to my flat. I don't remember doing this, but apparently I did. Well, it's now back in my possession again. Jen (presumably) has posted it to me. Nothing else in the envelope, no message, no apology, no nothing.
I guess the thing I'm most disappointed in is that I thought that I was getting somewhere with Jen and Graham, at least. We did actually end up going to that Twelfth Night gig (see the entry on 12 November 2007), and we had a really good time. We all got rather drunk, and it was at that point that I must have given Jen the key. I can't imagine why, but I did, there you go.
Look, guys, Twelfth Night broke up before we did. They've managed to get back together again, why can't we? Oh, that's right - they still like each other. And their lead guitarist didn't completely screw up any chance they ever had of fame by disappearing just as a major contract was about to be signed.
I guess the thing I'm most disappointed in is that I thought that I was getting somewhere with Jen and Graham, at least. We did actually end up going to that Twelfth Night gig (see the entry on 12 November 2007), and we had a really good time. We all got rather drunk, and it was at that point that I must have given Jen the key. I can't imagine why, but I did, there you go.
Look, guys, Twelfth Night broke up before we did. They've managed to get back together again, why can't we? Oh, that's right - they still like each other. And their lead guitarist didn't completely screw up any chance they ever had of fame by disappearing just as a major contract was about to be signed.
Friday 13 June 2008
What do I do?
I've calmed down now. I've learned a few lessons over the last week or so about who can and can't be trusted, so I'll be taking those forward. The plan remains the same: to complete the four albums of the Empty Vessel. I'm more confident than ever I can achieve that now.
Just as a complete aside, though, it did occur to me that you might be wondering what kind of person can just up and leave their job for six months and go and live in another country? I feel I owe you some sort of explanation.
Because what I have failed to tell you is that since leaving the Empty Vessel I have become quite a successful writer of fantasy fiction. No, not that sort of fantasy, fantasy as in fantasy and science fiction. I write under a pseudonym, which I'm not going to reveal here, and the chances of you having heard of me are pretty remote unless you're into that particular thing. I'd also be lying if I said it made me a fortune. It gives me a reasonable income.
So I've been using my time in Poland writing my next book. Exposure to different cultures is always good and sparks off ideas. I'm not quite sure what effect it's had on my writing, but it's certainly done something.
Just as a complete aside, though, it did occur to me that you might be wondering what kind of person can just up and leave their job for six months and go and live in another country? I feel I owe you some sort of explanation.
Because what I have failed to tell you is that since leaving the Empty Vessel I have become quite a successful writer of fantasy fiction. No, not that sort of fantasy, fantasy as in fantasy and science fiction. I write under a pseudonym, which I'm not going to reveal here, and the chances of you having heard of me are pretty remote unless you're into that particular thing. I'd also be lying if I said it made me a fortune. It gives me a reasonable income.
So I've been using my time in Poland writing my next book. Exposure to different cultures is always good and sparks off ideas. I'm not quite sure what effect it's had on my writing, but it's certainly done something.
Tuesday 10 June 2008
I've calmed down a bit
I've just read yesterday's post. It comes across as a bit of a rant, but I was really cross.
I'm beginning to suspect that Graham, Jen and Beth are all talking to each other about me. That they're meeting up regularly. Everything points that way. And the very worst part, the completely unforgiveable part, is Jen getting hold of a key to my flat and adding to my blog. How could that happen in this security conscious age, I hear you ask? Well, it did. And Jen says she did it because she was worried about me. Yeah, right. Just when we were beginning to get on so well again she has to go and do this.
If anything, this gives me added impetus to complete this project, despite the setbacks. I've been playing a fair bit of guitar while I've been in Poland over the last few months and I'm wondering whether I might just be able to do the guitar parts myself.
In a way, I don't think I'm surprised that I didn't find Zed in Poland. That would just be too easy. I've got a feeling there's quite a bit of pain and twists and turns to come before I finally work out what happened.
I'm beginning to suspect that Graham, Jen and Beth are all talking to each other about me. That they're meeting up regularly. Everything points that way. And the very worst part, the completely unforgiveable part, is Jen getting hold of a key to my flat and adding to my blog. How could that happen in this security conscious age, I hear you ask? Well, it did. And Jen says she did it because she was worried about me. Yeah, right. Just when we were beginning to get on so well again she has to go and do this.
If anything, this gives me added impetus to complete this project, despite the setbacks. I've been playing a fair bit of guitar while I've been in Poland over the last few months and I'm wondering whether I might just be able to do the guitar parts myself.
In a way, I don't think I'm surprised that I didn't find Zed in Poland. That would just be too easy. I've got a feeling there's quite a bit of pain and twists and turns to come before I finally work out what happened.
Monday 9 June 2008
I have found Zed
It's me again, Robert. Posting to my own blog. Bit of a strange concept, that, isn't it, someone else posting to a blog which is personal. A personal blog. Blog is short for weblog - a log of someone's personal experiences. Needless to say I am finding it difficult to understand why anyone would interfere in such a way, well never mind, I'll expect anything from a group of people so willing to undermine something which was so good.
I have found Zed, as I said. Well...sort of. I have found out where he's been for more than twenty years. It turns out that Zed is the initial of his first name, which is something bizarrely unpronounceable in Polish. And where he's been, logically enough, is Poland. In the last six months I have stayed with his family. Unfortunately, he disappeared from even there about a year ago, and his family haven't seen or heard from him since. So I found him...and I've lost him again.
So now I'm home again, in my flat. I've changed the locks after recent experiences and I've decided that I don't need anyone to help me any more. I don't need Jen, I don't need Graham, I don't need Beth. My computer can play better than any of them. I'm close now to completing three early Empty Vessel songs: Age of Innocence, Solid Ground and When the Rain Doesn't Fall. I'll post them on www.fournotes.co.uk as soon as they're ready.
I have found Zed, as I said. Well...sort of. I have found out where he's been for more than twenty years. It turns out that Zed is the initial of his first name, which is something bizarrely unpronounceable in Polish. And where he's been, logically enough, is Poland. In the last six months I have stayed with his family. Unfortunately, he disappeared from even there about a year ago, and his family haven't seen or heard from him since. So I found him...and I've lost him again.
So now I'm home again, in my flat. I've changed the locks after recent experiences and I've decided that I don't need anyone to help me any more. I don't need Jen, I don't need Graham, I don't need Beth. My computer can play better than any of them. I'm close now to completing three early Empty Vessel songs: Age of Innocence, Solid Ground and When the Rain Doesn't Fall. I'll post them on www.fournotes.co.uk as soon as they're ready.
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